50c Indulgence Month may have only just started but I know what my indulgence is for today. It doesn't cost a cent but is the most precious thing in the world to me and is a treat I will never take for granted.
Excuse the grainy-ness of this photo but it's one Noel took on my phone two nights ago and it's my absolute favourite photo at the moment. It makes me very proud that even though they are almost 13 and 15 they're still not too 'cool' or grown up to snuggle up on the couch with their mum - even though there's not much room for all three of us any more! When I look at this photo I feel like the luckiest mum in the world - but never more so than today. As I write this my heart is breaking for a mum who will never get to hug her son again. Because yesterday at just 15 he took his own life, leaving behind two parents, four siblings and a whole school and a community who loved him. This kid was a gem. He honestly was the last person we would ever have dreamed of choosing to leave this world. Popular, funny, smart, polite, good looking, hard working - he had everything going for him. But all the questions and all the wishing in the world won't bring him back. Liam and Ali are both too shellshocked to talk about it yet. It's hard enough for adults to deal with but almost impossible for a child to comprehend. So today my indulgence is to pamper my boys. Cherish them, appreciate them and listen - REALLY listen to every word they have to say. This morning they went off to school with an enormous cooked breakfast in their tummies and I drove them to school rather than send them out on their bikes in the rain. This afternoon when they come home there will be a cosy fire waiting for them, a big comforting batch of Mimi's Home Made 'Better Than Tinned' Spaghetti on the stove and their favourite blankets to snuggle up in. Cost = nothing. Happiness factor = priceless. Rest in peace Logan x